i got back my promos results today. and im so happy that my whole class is gonna get promoteddd. actually the whole arts fac is gonna get promoted. i did better than i expected. im quite happy with my results alr considering the effort i put in, but it may seem like shitty results to the muggers in school. hahaha. i got a C for lit, and E for maths and geog. i expected maths and geog to get a friggin U so im not complaining at all. (: hopefully my gp can secure a C or even a B and i just want to pass econs. okay enough about results, im just so happy that im promoted.
im sick to the core, i feel so sick. fever, headache, cough, runny nose, wheezing, cramps every now and then. ive never felt myself to be this sick in my entire life. i couldnt sleep last night and i was feeling fucking lethargic and weird.
i dont even know how i got this sick. mom said it was all the late nights and me going out catching viruses at all. ive a strange feeling im gonna be locked up in confinement soon. i love meeting up with the girls and all, but i cant now cos i feel my lungs exploding, my head pounding everytime i cough. and my forehead's so hot you can fry an egg on it. okay, hyperbole. haha.
on sat i was at forum macs the whole fucking day helping john with his chinese, jen and jean came later. we spent 230 friggin pm to 9pm just going through one friggin chinese story, the my mother story, and a lil bit of words here and there. i feel so worried and stressed for him. i bet im even putting in more effort than himmmmmm. damn him, that bastarrrrrd guy! hahahaha. chinese As are how imporant. focussssssss.
okay from now on, i will
1) revise the whole year's work before i enter J2
2) put in my whole heart and soul into PW. i have to!
3) save more money, spend less. ive got 4 important birthdays in the month of nov! dawn jen jeannine and my mommmmmm's.
4) change all my bad habits
5) have priorities. dont put sthing which is not important as a priority.
6) focus focus focus on the better things in life.
it was stupid to get myself involved emotionally in the first place. im so tired. now the decision's left to me. should we be friends? or complete strangers. it's a tough decision, tho it may not seem like one. as you said, i need better anger management. not everything's about me. i should stop throwing petty tantrums. and i shouldnt have been so naive.
i dont even know if im still angry or what. but i dont want this to even bother me. there are much more important stuff for me to focus. FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS.
"why're you so weak! you know it's not right. then stiffen up.." i never knew such simple words would be such great advice. at least to me. it really got to me, and made me wake up. thanks wisnioski. as much as you're a bloody jerk/moron/asshole/kumquat/dickhead, you still do good afterall. haha.
okay i feel drowsy and my fever's coming back. goodnight kids. "be goood". i will strive to be a muggertoad in muggerville. i will i will i will. focus focus focus.